It's been a while

It’s been a while since I allowed the words to grow in my finger tips. Many things changed in the mean time and I guess that writing in English is one of them.
I could go extensively from the snow that melted to the crazy sun that burnt and finish in our days where the rain still shows up and the summer is coming back again.
Many things are still changing and the uncertainty of the future makes wander through my days with no plans for tomorrow. I still have dreams, dreams that make me smile when the sun is up and hurt so much when the moon brings me the peace of the night and I alone face my own dreams.
Every day is a battle, every day I feel like the world can come to an end and there’s nothing I can do to help it. But every day ends with more pain and every day ends with a little but more ice covering my heart. Every day I walk away one step more, but I don’t know where am I walking to.
Some days I’m just as grey as the skies and if it rains I have no need to cry. But then the sun comes and I smile and I feel like I want to cry. And all these crazy feelings make me feel angry, able to fight every one and every thing.
I wake every day feeling that today is gonna be the day and every night I see it all delayed to the day after and I’ve been feeling that tomorrow will never come and I’ve been living the same day over and over again.
It’s been a while since I was graced with a peaceful day. I don’t think I remember it anymore!
But better days will come, one day…